While the world was asleep at 230 am, I started to awaken a side of my brain and the music in my heart that I had left dormant and abandoned for so long.
Rain, shine or my own inner hurricane, I’m STANDING and FACING the world. This sounds boastful but I HAVE to verbalize and be proud of this so that I may keep moving forward. I’ve kept my shit together even if I didn’t know whether I could.
“Sing badly with confidence.” That was the advice I got today at my 5th singing lesson. I had to do a double take on that one with my instructor. This lesson was an interesting one today and was one lesson that convinced me to continue renewing my vocal lessons. We worked on scales and yelling…
So now I am asking myself…am I afraid of singing or am I afraid of failing at singing? I probably sounded terrible and there were probably a few blown ear drums in the neighborhood. But at that point, I didn’t care that I sounded AWFUL.
While that moment of vulnerability was only for a few moments (with someone I hardly know), I feel so exposed and uncomfortable. I think of the quote, “The fear of looking stupid is holding you back.” I’ve already crossed the bridge of looking stupid so now, I have to choose whether I want to stay looking stupid or if I want to choose to exit this state.
“See the world and find the greatest love possible. Make your life count for something and do good.”